Jesus, only light on the shore
I went to my sister’s church this morning, well it used to be my church when I lived in the island, but it definitely isn’t these days!! I am not feeling particularly well and I got really irritated with all this happy clappy, bollocks, vacuous worship so I decided to leave before I slapped someone. It seems to me that I am missing the stillness of the Quakers, the structure of the Anglicans and the integrity of people who have struggled with church and yet keep going because they have found a way of making it work for them. Maybe it is just that I have changed so much that the old story doesn’t really work for me anymore.
So, I left church and went and sat down along the seafront, just looking out to sea. It was still and quiet and it is quite a grey day here but the sound of the sea and the smell of seaweed (which always reminds me of home) was more soothing and spiritual to me than being in church today. Then, I put the top down on mum’s little car and drove home… fast… Mum would have had a fit if she could have seen me 🙂 I was listening to one of her CD’s and a song by Fernando Ortega came on and I though the lyrics were so beautiful and I think they are a reflection of my heart and mind at the moment.
SLEEPLESS NIGHT – Fernando Ortega
Another sleepless night
I’m turning in my bed
Long before the red sun rises
In these early hours
I’m falling again
Into the river of my worries
When the river runs away
I find shelter in your name
Jesus, only light on the shore
Only hope in the storm
Jesus, let me fly to your side
There I would hide, Jesus
Hear my anxious prayer
The beating of my heart
The pulse and the measure of my unbelief
Speak your words to me
Before I come apart
Help me believe in what I cannot see
Before the river runs away
I will call upon your name
Jesus, only light on the shore
Only hope in the storm
Jesus, let me fly to your side
There I would hide, Jesus
…… if all goes well you should be able to hear this song here…