Mothering Sunday was never going to be an easy day this year. Last year was a great day to remember, finally I had achieved my long held dream of being a mother myself and my lovely Mum was still alive. This year, I still have a beautiful son, I am pregnant again but my lovely Mum is no longer with us and the pain of that is still terrible.
My sister and I went to the cemetery today and we took Mum flowers. I am sure it is against the rules to plant things actually in the ground but her grave looks like a flower bed! So, we planted these gorgeous ranunculous flowers, one from each of us and a third from the grandchildren.
Oh Mum, I miss you so much.
Life without you is infinitely poorer and we miss you so very much. It is only now that we recognise just how much you did for us; all the quiet sorting out and looking after the children, the times you made meals for us or how often we would eat together at your house. The children miss you desperately – your delight in being with them was wonderful and we miss your free childcare which we always took for granted but now miss more than ever.
My sister and I just miss you. You were the best Mum we ever had as well as being one of our best friends. Of course we miss all the things you did for us, but more than anything we miss you company, laughter, kindness, support and the very great love you showed us.
Happy Mothering Sunday Mum, with all our love as always.
